I want to be that girl. That girl who knows what she's doing. That girl who can wear whatever she wants and look good doing it. That girl who doesn't care what other people think. That girl who does whatever she feels like, just because. I want to be that girl.
But I'm not that girl. I'm a girl who can't figure out what she wants half the time. I'm a girl who wishes she could pull off the latest fashions but when she tries them on and looks in the mirror, only sees a little girl playing dress up. I'm a girl who won't do what she truly wants because she's afraid people will judge her.
Maybe someday I'll be that girl.
But for now, I'll keep on being who I am. Keep obsessing over Harry Potter and Jake Gyllenhaal. Keep watching movies and listening to music no one has heard of. Keep painting my nails bright red, gray, yellow, brown, and mint green. Keep wearing skinny jeans, converse, and t-shirts. Keep playing my guitar and attempting to write songs. And I'll keep trying to figure out who I am.